The Invitation

Over the last 3 days, I have been going through one of those periods where I don't sleep much, then when I awake I don't remember much of what happened... But let me start with what happened 3 days ago...

3 days ago I was meditating and I made an invitation to good spirits to come forward and reveal themselves to me and to help me. I knew I was afraid somewhat so I kept telling myself that I was safe and things like that. I was afraid because in previous similar meditations that I have not revealed here, I have been having out of body experiences where I leave my body, while awake in a meditation state of mind. For some reason, I do not fear the obe when my body is asleep but it has been a process for me to come to be comfortable with leaving my body while I am awake and meditating.

So, first, let me go back a little farther to the first ever waking obe which I didn't realize was an obe until recently, although this happened when I was a teenager. I was in a guided meditation with some friends as a teen and in the guided meditation, I felt my body dematerialize. The experience was unexpected and frightening and consequently I felt as though I had no body and basically, I freaked out. I jolted back, stood up and stormed out of the room crying and not understanding what happened. See, I went to a place that was completely white and vast. I had no clue where I was and I wondered if I was dead. I tried to forget what happened and I did for over a decade until now at the age of 29 I recognize what happened, and what dimension I was in because I have since returned a couple times.

So, since that happened, I have gone to that place again. The first time back was just as frightening if not more frightening. It was actually extremely frightening and the most frightened I have been in my life. In a meditation, I went there again. I felt my body dematerialize and I was surrounded by a seemingly empty white void. Even when I tried to reconnect with my body and open my eyes I was unable and I again wondered if I had died being in this white void of light. No one was there that I could see. Just myself in a vast void of nothingness. After that I avoided this particular meditation for several months.

But 3 days ago, I decided to try again to try to more fully understand what was happening. It took me half a year to build up the courage to do this again and return to this place. I needed to repeat to myself over and over again that 'I am safe'. I know on some level that I truly am safe and it is just that I am not used to what happens, how sudden it happens, why it happens, etc but I feel there must be a reason I go there. There must be some understanding there for me and if I can face my fears, there should be some kind of pay off waiting. Something enlightening perhaps. So, I began by praying and preparing myself. My preparation also includes a few days of fasting or modified fasting, following only the most natural of diets. It is a process (although the first time, as a teen, it happened suddenly). To recreate it myself, I need to go through these preparations. HOW I go there seems of less importance because I believe there could be many methods. After deep prayer and before beginning my obe meditations, I verbally invited good beings to help me and guide me. I was still afraid. Part of me had a racing heart and I began to sweat in anticipation and fear of what was about to happen. I literally felt drops of sweat dripping off my body. I was terrified. I knew I needed to face this, as frightening as it was for me. Just before I left the body, more than a dozen beings appeared to me. They surrounded me in a circle. Some appeared human while others had elongated skulls and appeared alien, like the ancient Egyptian elongated skulls. As I looked around the room and saw all the people there with me, I knew that they had all responded to my invitation for help and guidance, and they were all sending me love energy. Just then I felt a pressure on my right hand on the webbing between my thumb and index finger. I could not see who or what was touching my hand. Then, the presence, gripped my hand, holding it, and the very next moment, I was out of my body, surrounded by the love energy of the group of beings who responded to my invitation. During the waking obe, I have some awareness of the body while also being aware that I am or part of me is also in another dimension. The room around me faded to white and again I was in this vast space. Now, I couldn't see any beings with me but I knew they were with me and felt the presence of them. I felt as though I was traveling fast and then I slowed and stopped.. then I saw another being there that appeared to look like a butterfly made of flashing lights. This butterfly being could communicate with me telepathically and showed me what I could describe only as a fluid body of whitish clear sort of water-like fluid. It was source and it was love. I began to cry, overwhelmed by the love I felt. I understood that it was truly divine and I returned to my body. My awareness again in my body, I realized I had cried so much that my shirt was very wet and my face was soaked in tears. I have no clue how long the experience lasted in terms of time. It could have been a minute or an hour. I lost all sense of time.

The next couple nights I barely slept at night, just 4 or 5 hours of sleep and each time I awoke, I felt as though I dreamed but I could not remember what happened. I even had 2 short naps during the day, the same way and again, found it difficult to recollect what had happened. But, then, on the 3rd night, I recognize that there is a being and I am lucid in this plane where it's like I am having an out of body on this plane, I often think of them as 'ghost obes' because I could travel around and walk around in my own home like a ghost. Anyway, during this, I recognize that a being is there and she is working and had been working all along. In this 3rd lucid dream, I had the ability to remember the lucid dreams from the nights before and the naps. Since, in this state, I could remember and I knew someone was there, I called out and I asked, "Who are you?" A female voice replied, "Kristen" and I thought to myself that I was a bit disappointed that it was such an ordinary name and I expected something exotic or spiritual sounding. I asked again if it was Kristen or Crystal and again the voice replied, "Kristen". At that moment, I said, "Who are you, Kristen?" and at the very moment, I momentarily awoke because it turned out that I spoken the words aloud from my body. But, I quickly returned to the lucid dream state and asked again, mentally, "Kristen, who are you?" Then the next reply was with an image of a Canadian flag and the understanding that she was a person. She was once a Canadian person and she was here to help me as a guide. Over the previous nights I remembered that I had observed a massive amount of work being done and this work entailed an elaborate construction of what appeared to be similar to duct work or plumbing or tubes, placed all through my home. Just tubes and things growing like plants or roots all through my home. Not assembled, but growing... Kristen was able to communicate with me but not in the same way as a living person. Sometimes she could use words while other times she sent me images or understanding and she sent me the understanding that what she was doing was to help me with manifestation and protection. She communicated with me other things, which I'd prefer to keep to myself. Sometimes it seemed that it was hard for her to communicate and responses came with a delay while other times it seemed easy and I imagine that is why her communications to me came in various forms. She showed me several images and had me understand certain things. Now, I don't understand everything and I never actually saw her physical being, shape or form. She was more of a presence. I suspect she may have been the one to take my hand. Much of this remains a mystery for me but ultimately, I know that I asked for help and I asked for guidance and I received a clear response. I asked and I received. I look forward to the experiences to follow...

I don't fully understand what has begun or what has happened or how her construction of this unknown technology works. But I know I received a clear and definite response to my call for help. Kristen seems to be the one I have direct communication with but I also know I have seen the others, both human and not and I know I am surrounded by them. It is comforting. Ultimately, I have become far less fearful of this place I go to. This white expanse of light... Do I understand it all? No. I don't. But, I feel a lot more comfortable and I feel much closer to finding out what it is and exploring it again.

New Dimensions...

I originally started this blog to update my experiences with lucid dreaming and out of body experiences. Since my last post I have been through intense spiritual periods. I have learned the skill I have always coveted and I can now leave my body at will nearly every time I attempt. I've discovered two new dimensions that I fully lack the words to articulate the experience in a way where I'd feel the listener could actually comprehend without having the same experience. I'll just call them the geometric and light dimensions. I can't explain how or why I've gone to these two places but I understand that the geometric dimension is closely woven to our own common perception of reality. I have found that by sitting calmly, I can visually see the energetic patterns of the geometric dimension in the world around me. It's as if gaining a new perception of sight but a different sight than my physical eyes see. I can see this whether my eyes are open or closed or whether I am in my body or out so long as I wish to see it. My intent to focus on it brings it forth and allows me to cross the barrier. I've now had several out of body experiences while still being awake in the way that you would say I am not sleeping. Not in bed. While in a sitting meditative posture, I have had the experience of leaving my body and entering these other planes. At first this was frightening because I was unsure whether or not my body was safe or if it was even still living. I have questioned whether or not my body was alive or dead, especially upon entering the light dimension. From the geometric place where colors of energy dance in multi-dimensional geometric patterns and shapes, a light tunnel appeared which I became drawn toward. It surrounded and engulfed be and I became surrounded by a void and infinite nothingless made of pure white light. I became unaware of the body completely and questioned whether I was alive or dead. I don't have all the answers but what I can tell you is this... I've been having these OBEs for years, mostly in our physical realm where I walk about as a "ghost" and explore and even occasionally interact with others who are having a similar experience. It happened at random then because I made so much effort, I learned to do it at will and then I discovered there are other dimensions out there. I can at will leave my body in a sleeping state and now on occasion I can leave my body in a waking state. What I've learned is how to control and recognize the feeling of the astral body to the point where I can separate it at will, most of the time. When waking, there does seem to be a degree of difficulty in separating from the body only because the body must be so relaxed that it's sometimes too difficult to separate while maintaining a meditation upright posture. However, I've done it a couple times. What does it all mean? That is the question I continue to pursue.

Angelic Dream

Recently, I encountered some health issues that could have suddenly cost me my life. Luckily, it did not and I am still here. An angel called Soriel came to me in a dream. I don't remember the full dream. But I remember him telling me his name over and over... During the day I would often feel weak followed by a feeling of energy being poured on me and surrounding me. This energy would make me feel strong again. It was a strange feeling. Just today I needed to go to the store. I went. I felt weak and dizzy. Suddenly I felt this sensation of warm energy being poured on me as if buckets of energy were being poured down on my head and this energy surrounded me and strengthened me. Immediately, the next thing I noticed, playing on the store's radio was a song... about angels.

Sometimes We Leave Our Bodies and Don't Realize!

This is actually comforting to me. Knowing that I am leaving my body more often than I realize.
Especially comforting when I haven't been "out" as much as I like.

Just the other day I had a non-lucid OBE. This means, I was able to confirm to myself, PROVE I was out of my body without realizing I was out of my body at the time. To me, it was just a dream. I was not clear, aware, mentally awake or whatever you might describe it as. However, I was out of my body on the earth plane, or rather, just like a ghost, wandering around.

I dreamed that I was walking beside my house out toward my chicken coop. I saw the door swing open from heavy winds. All the chickens were out. This causes me to feel a sensation of panic. The dogs will attack the chickens if they get out. Immediately, I woke up and I felt relieved this was only a dream. A short while later, still early morning, I went to collect the eggs. Having thought it was just a dream, I realized it was an OBE. The winds had been so strong they knocked down gates, the coop door was wide open and all the chickens were out. Luckily, the dogs did not realize.

All my birds were safely put back into their coop. They can enjoy the outside from the safety of their fenced outdoor run now.

I think we do this naturally, leave our bodies I mean. This is why I care so much about taking advantage of it. Remembering and being aware of it. My ideal OBE would be to experience the separation, be clear minded and aware. I go through periods when I am more able and less able to OBE at will. Regardless of whether it's happening at will or randomly, it's happening.

Woke up on the ceiling! Plus, being pulled out of the body.

It's been awhile since my last post. I do have periods of time when I don't get out of my body as much but rest assured I will continue to share. If you see that I have not posted in some time, well, that is why.

Actually I did have one other astral experience between my last post and this one... but it's so far out there that I feel hesitant about posting it, for now... What I will tell you is that I did not come out of my body normally. I was pulled out by what I perceived to be a green light and I was taken to another world or realm, that was beautiful and green with exotic plant life. Overall it was a very peaceful experience. Being pulled out of my body felt fast and a bit forceful. It was a little shocking but at the same time, I wanted to go. The command I thought aloud was "I am being abducted and I am going to remember this time." I don't know why I said "this time" but for some reason I felt that this has happened before. I have no previous memories of this but based on my pure astral thought, I suspect this has happened before.

My most recent out of body experience happened a couple days ago. A lot of times while we are sleeping and unaware, the astral body separates from the physical body. Sometimes the mind is not alert and clear during the separation, but asleep. This was the case when I woke up on the ceiling, twice on this particular morning.

I recently pulled a muscle in my back and I woke up around 5 AM and went into the shower to let hot water run on my back to sooth the ache. I was still extremely sleepy the whole time but I couldn't find a comfortable way to lay in bed so I was in a sort of half sleep in the shower, then after some time returning to bed around 6 AM.

Then, Suddenly my mind wakes up! I was separated from my body already. I was sitting or laying, crouching on the ceiling, across the room. The first thing I did was look at my hands. They were purple which confirmed to me that this was my astral body. (sometimes I have a purple body and sometimes I am a ball of light) I looked down at my bed and saw the sheet I was covered in and the lump under it, which was my body, completely covered up in a blue fitted sheet that I use as a blanket sometimes. I like to use the fitted sheet because it feels like a cocoon.

As I realized I was out of my body, I thought about what I wanted to do now. I wanted to go outside. On this particular occasion I was having problems (mentally) flying through the wall. So, instead I passed through the window. It was easier to wrap my mind around. Although passing through walls is possible and I have done it, sometimes I take one step back before taking two forward. I think this is normal.

Once I flew through my window, passing the thickness of the glass (which I seem to be able to feel) I went outside and started to lose my lucidity or awareness. I remember thinking, commanding (every thought is like a spoken word in the astral) "be clear" "want clarity" and things like that. Then I was able to come back momentarily before losing my astral awareness.

Then, I once again, became aware and astral, on the ceiling again. I don't know why my astral body decided to hang out on the ceiling. This time, I tried to remain completely calm, speaking/thinking what I wanted. "Floating down" I lowered myself to the floor. I still didn't know exactly what I wanted out of this experience. It's been awhile since I have been out of body so I had no planning of who I wanted to see or where I wanted to go. So I decided I wanted to go back outside and fly around. I flew back out the window. It was an overcast day (it was also upon waking) and I floated about outside my window, looking at the trees the sky, then I started to fly straight verticle. There was a flash of white light and I was snapped back into my body. I knew I was there, but not fully reattached yet as I had paralysis. A few moments later I woke out of my bed, feeling refreshed and wonderful. It was about 8AM or so.

Lucid Dream to Astral

I know I have not updated in awhile. Unfortunately, I have allowed myself to become busy with the ongoings of daily physical life.

I have had several lucid dreams since my last post but not so many astral projections. I found the lucid dreams I was in to be pleasurable and just have not had the desire to leave the body. However, today in my lucid dream I very much wanted to separate and I did.


In my lucid dream I was walking around in a shopping center of some kind. While the specific details often slip my mind, I do recall what triggered me to realize I was dreaming. I was walking to an entrance when suddenly instead of approaching the entrance I was back again where I started. I looked around in my dream, saw the same people and things I had seen moments earlier as if experiencing deja vu inside a dream. Then it had occurred to me that I was in fact, dreaming. It was like a broken DVD and realizing that life images do not cycle in this way, triggered my awareness. In my dream I was walking with a man and woman and as soon as I had the awareness and lucidity I looked to them, told them I was dreaming and I wanted to project now. I said "see ya later" raised my arms and flew up. Somehow this action has become pattern for me to "end the dream".



Once the dream ended I retained the same awareness but I knew for a fact that I was laying in my bed, feeling so awake. Then I could see the room because I had partially separated from my body. I focused in on my arms and lifted my astral arms away from the arms of my body. My astral arms were blue, very much like Krishna and the tips of my fingers, the nails, are purple. I am already aware of my blue and violet coloring while in the astral but I don't always retain human form while projecting. Anyway, back to the projection experience. The body is sleeping in the bed and I am - my awareness and astral self is sitting up in bed partially sharing the same space with the body. My husband is sleeping beside me and I began to touch him with my blue hands. I also recall looking at myself sleep. My pink or white skin seemed so foreign at the time, so far away from who I really am. I did not leave my room in this projection. There was a small energy being in my room with me. I do not know its origin. It appeared to be a white ball with a tail. (kind of like a tadpole) and it was about the size of a mouse. I think it is an astral creature of some kind although I do not know what it is exactly. I just remember observing it as it traveled into my room, passed by and left, through the wall. At some point my memory abruptly ends. I do not recall re-entering my body or going anywhere else. It just ended.

Escape the Body

As the weather changed this fall I found myself with frequent headaches that prevented me from astral projecting to my fullest ability. The pressure headaches just kind of stood in my way. I also get migraines. They started out as migraine aura, with no pain. It looked similar to what you can see in the photo above. Usually a "C" shape made of luminescent triangles and angular design would grow and grow until a large section of vision was lost. At first it was only bothersome if I was driving and it would only last an hour at the most. Over the years it has gotten worse. I get aura followed by migraine pain that can last anywhere from an hour to half a day and in rare circumstances longer.



Last night around midnight, the aura began... I lay in bed for about 2 hours with a slight headache. Lucky for me it was night time. No lights or loud sounds to bother me. Eventually I even manage to sleep. Then I become aware in my sleep, a lucid dream. I was in a city flying over the top like a bird. I looked down and saw what looked like a city hall or official building then I woke up again. The pain in my head had gotten much worse and it was hard to get in any comfortable position. I started willing myself to leave the body and I could feel my astral legs reaching out or floating out of the body. It felt like I was tilting then suddenly out of my body while fully aware and pain free. It was like I had astral projected in order to escape my body and the pain that was there. It was easier to leave my body while the body was in pain like that.



I met 2 people on the astral also. A man and a woman. None of us knew the other one from the physical world. The man seemed very advanced and was able to change his form and he was happy to show us as he became taller or shorter, he could change his hair or what appeared to be clothing. The woman seemed like she was newer to all of this but she understood that we were together on the astral plane and that she was projecting. The three of us decided we should go somewhere together and somehow we decided we wanted to go to a coral reef under the ocean. We all went together, the man leading the way and we flew - whizzed by what seemed like a large distance, in just a few moments. The woman had slight problem getting through a net. I passed through it just fine and so did the man but the woman with us seemed to have a problem with mentally getting through it and I was able to help her. She was still new to astral projection and didn't think she could pass through things and I was able to help her pass through the netting that was in our path. She seemed to be very excited to pass through things!

As we started to go under the water to see the coral reef, I started to talk to the man with us about my migraine and told him that I was able to leave the body so easily because my body was in so much pain at the moment. He seemed to know exactly what I meant! He told me he wanted to stay in the astral plane forever and he didn't want to talk about his body or else he would be pulled back. Just then I was pulled back into mine and I woke up with the migraine and also I had to use the bathroom so I did that and returned to bed and left my body again in the same way. Tilting, a little vibrations.. I willed myself to return to the corals, traveling in the same way, whizzing by... and the woman was gone but the man was still there at the corals and he seemed to be meditating. I assume the woman returned to her body.

So, I went around under the water for awhile with the friend I had made. We never told each other our names and I guess next time I should ask people their names!





I saw brilliant colored corals and fish swimming around. It was so neat to be under the water without concern for breathing. The water was shallow maybe just a few feet deep and less in some areas. I stayed out of my body for several hours just chatting with my new friend. We went together into a nearby house where the occupants were sleeping and just looked around, being nosy I guess. I was aware of the time during all of this and I knew it was time for me to go back so said good-bye. He said he was going to stay out longer but I had to return to my body in order to wake up and get ready to work. I returned to my body and it was exactly the time I knew it was and I got out of bed with just a little headache left but the migraine had mostly passed. I also felt well rested and no morning grogginess but clear minded.